Alright, I will listen to You, I will let it go.

The other day, I shared something like… qualify, disqualify or whatever—crappy things..

but HEY! it’s really not crappy at all! Because right now it’s only left with one… So I heard my Heavenly Father spoke… It was the same speech as last year and last last year but this time it was more encouraging for me. And I finally let it go just with a blink of my eyes. I didn’t cry, I didn’t tear, I didn’t feel sad nor did I feel down.

I believe it was the voice of my Heavenly Father saying.. “Let him go my child, you have been holding on to him for this few years. You know he is not for you, my child. Why did you refuse to let him go?”

I replied in a depressing tone.. “Because I really love him… I really do.”

“Let him go, and I will bless you with someone who is more deserving of you.”

“God, do I even deserve such a good men? Do I even deserve a good built up creation of yours? I don’t feel so. I really don’t.”

“Yes, you do, my child. Each and every person in this world, I specifically, uniquely created them and because you are my child, you do. Let my words be planted in your heart and be bless!”

Somehow… I guess(because I’m still having doubts..)… I think i know who is the men that God wants to bless me for eternity… But…

I really don’t know… I’m unsure if it’s my thinking or God’s word. So I just let it be… I shared with some of my friends and those who knows it are actually quite happy for me… but I guess… i ‘m still having a little doubt. :/

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Btw, I shared with A FEW people that one of my friend recommended me a friend… okaye… NO MORE, NO MORE! The other day I was praying and my God says “He’s not the one.” But I didn’t tell the person who recommended me… Because I only heard the voice a few weeks after I’m being recommended but thank goodness that during the same week… the guy feels that I’m not for him! Happy MAX!