Merry Christmas! In 6 days time, you will be unofficially 23years old!

This is a post to myself.

This is a post made to you very first on 23January2011 around 3am. You took more than an hour to write this post. The day after you wrote this post, you had an extremely high fever and still went to Church(Jurong West) and Lao Yu Sheng together with TV ministry crew. (the underline words will only appear at the very last 2nd and the last of the same post you have scheduled post to yourself for the past few years. Yes, this is the very last same scheduled post you have made to yourself since the year 2011.)

Ning,

Every time I look at you, there’s really many things about you I really dislike especially your stubbornness but at the same time, I Love your stubbornness.

Sometimes, your stubbornness brought many many and really really lots of lots of misery to yourself, sometimes it brought heartache to your love ones, sometimes your stubbornness brought upon many troubles and problems to yourself, sometimes your stubbornness destroys some part of you, sometimes your stubbornness wasted some part of your life away and… sometimes your stubbornness brought you to success, victory… yes, it does save you… sometimes… some of the times.

Ning, I have to say… every time I look at you, I feel that you are extraordinarily special… There’s really a unique specialty about you that I really admire you. Some times I ask, who is ning?! Have she became another person or what?! You are so unique that whatever things you do in life, you are constantly… So frequently asking for that something. That something is always being looked down by others, being criticized by others, laughed by others. You always think and say the most crazy things that nobody would even want to think about it… You always plan to do the impossible things. You cried secretly in your room every time you feel discourage, sad, troubled… helpless and also… when you are lack of support. No matter what you face, I really like it that… many times, you said and readily prepared for defeat but always trying to make that little small change in a split second when it’s really near defeat. I like to see how discourage you becomes when you plan to give up on yourself… because if you don’t I guess you would have died long time ago.

I admire you… I really admire you for praying to that unknown God and pluck out the courage you had when you were so young saying so confidently, so boldly to mom and dad in front of that idolized altar saying that you will become a Christian one day, some day… You went searching for that something alone in the 1st place… I really like the Journey you had in searching for that something… Because you were so young back then, no one told you anything and you went around naively asking and searching for that something. Many laughed at you and made you a laughing stock but Thank Goodness, you were found and you have found.

I really like how you told yourself to have the courage to overcome things when you were 7. You forced yourself to enjoy and like things that many girls don’t. You wanted to get rid of having phobia towards insects that you forced yourself to catch cockroaches every time when it visit your house. You gave yourself challenges to catch insects and explore them, u saw the interesting patterns on those creatures and the different textile by putting them under bright lights for exploration. Eventually you fell in love with insects and always saying how beautiful they are although many said you have lose your mind.

Although I really wants to write more but I guess I will stop the story her straight. All I wanted to say is… Where have all your courage gone to? Weren’t you very bold back then? Since young, you always believe that no matter how impossible a situation is, everything can be done, now you have God, what are you hesitating? Work on it as it will surely definitely benefits you in future and of course in the journey of achieving your dreams and making your vision come true… and I’m sure all this I have written is something you are lack in and stopping you to do a wonderful portfolio.

Always remembers your motto: Strive for the best of the BEST. Excellence, Outstanding, Impressive, Creativity must never be out of your work.

Remember that your work have to meet up your own expectations, without anyone of this you know, you won’t be able to Shine for God. Because Excellence, Outstanding, Impressive, Creativity comes from God. Never for get that! I hope you will continue to work hard for your dream and even harder for that vision. Your Dream is the skeleton of the Vision that God is constantly expanding. Love you.

From Dearest and Most Sincerely,

God and Zining. 

 

27th April 2011: Hi Ning, today is your Birthday, I wish you a Happy Birthday and hope that all this things you wrote to yourself on 23 January 2011 by you haven’t been forgotten by you.

1st January 2012: Hi Ning, Happy Chinese New Year! How have you been? How’s life in Lasalle?! Is everything alright? Hope you have picked up many skills and ideas together with your classmates there! Jia You in everything you do! May you continue to rely in God’s strength! :D

27th April 2012: Happy Birthday Ning! This is the 2^nd year ever since you made this post to yourself! How are you feeling? Remember courage? Remember Boldness… Although I’m writing this to the Future you in 2years time but… I feel deep in my heart that… You have lost this 2 in the future year in 2years time. I hope this will prompt you and reminds you! <3!

27th April 2013: Happy Birthday Ning! Remember your Dreams? Remember your Vision? You know that both your Dreams and Visions are different right? Your dreams are your inspiration while your vision is created and expanded by God. Your Dream is the skeleton of your Vision while your Vision is the backbone of your Dream. Dreams come from you. While Vision is given to you and constantly expanding from Heavenly Father... Remember the promises that Abba Father have given to you. Remember what you’ve once said? “In Christ alone, be amaze. After every Rain, will it shine or not, there will definitely be rainbow. In God, I trust.” You wrote this in your msn status on 24th Jan 2011 2 8.34pm. Continue to strive for your dream and work hard+pray for a path for your vision! All the best!

25th December 2014: Merry Christmas Ning! 4years have passed ever since you 1^st made this post! How have you been? Are you attached to Hock Soon(just guessing, I felt something special and different about you where my spirit can connects with you but just that… back then 2011, I really don’t know who’s the one and feel special about this person. And yeah… it’s just merely a guess back in 2011)? Or you are still single? O.O I hope you are a recognized Fashion Designer right now and earning hard. Millionaire OR multi-millionaire in 4years times! Am believing for that since 2011. Jia you Ning! And this will be the last time for reposting this to you! <3 Jiayou Ning! In your Dreams, your Vision, Career and relationship! *BTW, please go and search for the precious box that Ah Gong have given to you in 2010 as Chinese New Year Gift! It looks very antique and is made of wood. It look very old. I have left a Vision Plan for you there. Take it out, read it thoroughly and pray to God. See what God says. <3 you! Hopefully by now, you are running after the vision that God have given you… When all else fall, God will stand by you. Go back to Him when everything is falling apart. Go back to Him. When you feel that your heart is aching for something, Go back to Him and let His strength be be yours.

Happy 21st Birthday NING! Remember this? You wrote to Yourself back in 2011.

This is a post to myself.

This is a post made to you very first on 23January2011 around 3am. You took more than an hour to write this post. The day after you wrote this post, you had an extremely high fever and still went to Church(Jurong West) and Lao Yu Sheng together with TV ministry crew. (the underline words will only appear at the very last 2nd and the last of the same post you have scheduled post to yourself for the past few years. Yes, this is the very last same scheduled post you have made to yourself since the year 2011.)

Ning,

Every time I look at you, there’s really many things about you I really dislike especially your stubbornness but at the same time, I Love your stubbornness.

Sometimes, your stubbornness brought many many and really really lots of lots of misery to yourself, sometimes it brought heartache to your love ones, sometimes your stubbornness brought upon many troubles and problems to yourself, sometimes your stubbornness destroys some part of you, sometimes your stubbornness wasted some part of your life away and… sometimes your stubbornness brought you to success, victory… yes, it does save you… sometimes… some of the times.

Ning, I have to say… every time I look at you, I feel that you are extraordinarily special… There’s really a unique specialty about you that I really admire you. Some times I ask, who is ning?! Have she became another person or what?! You are so unique that whatever things you do in life, you are constantly… So frequently asking for that something. That something is always being looked down by others, being criticized by others, laughed by others. You always think and say the most crazy things that nobody would even want to think about it… You always plan to do the impossible things. You cried secretly in your room every time you feel discourage, sad, troubled… helpless and also… when you are lack of support. No matter what you face, I really like it that… many times, you said and readily prepared for defeat but always trying to make that little small change in a split second when it’s really near defeat. I like to see how discourage you becomes when you plan to give up on yourself… because if you don’t I guess you would have died long time ago.

I admire you… I really admire you for praying to that unknown God and pluck out the courage you had when you were so young saying so confidently, so boldly to mom and dad in front of that idolized altar saying that you will become a Christian one day, some day… You went searching for that something alone in the 1st place… I really like the Journey you had in searching for that something… Because you were so young back then, no one told you anything and you went around naively asking and searching for that something. Many laughed at you and made you a laughing stock but Thank Goodness, you were found and you have found.

I really like how you told yourself to have the courage to overcome things when you were 7. You forced yourself to enjoy and like things that many girls don’t. You wanted to get rid of having phobia towards insects that you forced yourself to catch cockroaches every time when it visit your house. You gave yourself challenges to catch insects and explore them, u saw the interesting patterns on those creatures and the different textile by putting them under bright lights for exploration. Eventually you fell in love with insects and always saying how beautiful they are although many said you have lose your mind.

Although I really wants to write more but I guess I will stop the story her straight. All I wanted to say is… Where have all your courage gone to? Weren’t you very bold back then? Since young, you always believe that no matter how impossible a situation is, everything can be done, now you have God, what are you hesitating? Work on it as it will surely definitely benefits you in future and of course in the journey of achieving your dreams and making your vision come true… and I’m sure all this I have written is something you are lack in and stopping you to do a wonderful portfolio.

Always remembers your motto: Strive for the best of the BEST. Excellence, Outstanding, Impressive, Creativity must never be out of your work.

Remember that your work have to meet up your own expectations, without anyone of this you know, you won’t be able to Shine for God. Because Excellence, Outstanding, Impressive, Creativity comes from God. Never for get that! I hope you will continue to work hard for your dream and even harder for that vision. Your Dream is the skeleton of the Vision that God is constantly expanding. Love you.

From Dearest and Most Sincerely,

God and Zining. 

 

27th April 2011: Hi Ning, today is your Birthday, I wish you a Happy Birthday and hope that all this things you wrote to yourself on 23 January 2011 by you haven’t been forgotten by you.

1st January 2012: Hi Ning, Happy Chinese New Year! How have you been? How’s life in Lasalle?! Is everything alright? Hope you have picked up many skills and ideas together with your classmates there! Jia You in everything you do! May you continue to rely in God’s strength! :D

27th April 2012: Happy Birthday Ning! This is the 2^nd year ever since you made this post to yourself! How are you feeling? Remember courage? Remember Boldness… Although I’m writing this to the Future you in 2years time but… I feel deep in my heart that… You have lost this 2 in the future year in 2years time. I hope this will prompt you and reminds you! <3!

27th April 2013: Happy Birthday Ning! Remember your Dreams? Remember your Vision? You know that both your Dreams and Visions are different right? Your dreams are your inspiration while your vision is created and expanded by God. Your Dream is the skeleton of your Vision while your Vision is the backbone of your Dream. Dreams come from you. While Vision is given to you and constantly expanding from Heavenly Father... Remember the promises that Abba Father have given to you. Remember what you’ve once said? “In Christ alone, be amaze. After every Rain, will it shine or not, there will definitely be rainbow. In God, I trust.” You wrote this in your msn status on 24th Jan 2011 2 8.34pm. Continue to strive for your dream and work hard+pray for a path for your vision! All the best!

Who am i?

Came to check out my blog & found a post that was made to my future self a year ago.

As i was reading it, i started to tear. 

i asked myself... Where am i now? What have i become?

Frankly speaking, this relationship that i am in now isn't really what i wanted. 

it's not the same as i expected before.

Just. So different.

it's opposite from what he've said. 

Am i being taken for granted?

i don't know.

All i know is that i've lost a part of me. Probably, a part of me was torn away by myself. i, lost myself.

Who am i?

The moment i finish reading the post, i, cried.

Where the hell am i?

I think i made a rash & unwise decision.

Who the hell is this?

Why? Why am i here?

How? How did i do this?

How did i even think of doing this? 

Seriously, where have i gone to?

Where did you go Zining?

Happy Chinese New Year Zining!

This is a post to myself.

This is a post made to you very first on 23January2011 around 3am. You took more than an hour to write this post.

Ning,

Every time I look at you, there’s really many things about you I really dislike especially your stubbornness but at the same time, I Love your stubbornness.

Sometimes, your stubbornness brought many many and really really lots of lots of misery to yourself, sometimes it brought heartache to your love ones, sometimes your stubbornness brought upon many troubles and problems to yourself, sometimes your stubbornness destroys some part of you, sometimes your stubbornness wasted some part of your life away and… sometimes your stubbornness brought you to success, victory… yes, it does save you… sometimes… some of the times.

Ning, I have to say… every time I look at you, I feel that you are extraordinarily special… There’s really a unique specialty about you that I really admire you. Some times I ask, who is ning?! Have she became another person or what?! You are so unique that whatever things you do in life, you are constantly… So frequently asking for that something. That something is always being looked down by others, being criticized by others, laughed by others. You always think and say the most crazy things that nobody would even want to think about it… You always plan to do the impossible things. You cried secretly in your room every time you feel discourage, sad, troubled… helpless and also… when you are lack of support. No matter what you face, I really like it that… many times, you said and readily prepared for defeat but always trying to make that little small change in a split second when it’s really near defeat. I like to see how discourage you becomes when you plan to give up on yourself… because if you don’t I guess you would have died long time ago.

I admire you… I really admire you for praying to that unknown God and pluck out the courage you had when you were so young saying so confidently, so boldly to mom and dad in front of that idolized altar saying that you will become a Christian one day, some day… You went searching for that something alone in the 1st place… I really like the Journey you had in searching for that something… Because you were so young back then, no one told you anything and you went around naively asking and searching for that something. Many laughed at you and made you a laughing stock but Thank Goodness, you were found and you have found.

I really like how you told yourself to have the courage to overcome things when you were 7. You forced yourself to enjoy and like things that many girls don’t. You wanted to get rid of having phobia towards insects that you forced yourself to catch cockroaches every time when it visit your house. You gave yourself challenges to catch insects and explore them, u saw the interesting patterns on those creatures and the different textile by putting them under bright lights for exploration. Eventually you fell in love with insects and always saying how beautiful they are although many said you have lose your mind.

Although I really wants to write more but I guess I will stop the story her straight. All I wanted to say is… Where have all your courage gone to? Weren’t you very bold back then? Since young, you always believe that no matter how impossible a situation is, everything can be done, now you have God, what are you hesitating? Work on it as it will surely definitely benefits you in future and of course in the journey of achieving your dreams and making your vision come true… and I’m sure all this I have written is something you are lack in and stopping you to do a wonderful portfolio.

Always remembers your motto: Strive for the best of the BEST. Excellence, Outstanding, Impressive, Creativity must never be out of your work.

Remember that your work have to meet up your own expectations, without anyone of this you know, you won’t be able to Shine for God. Because Excellence, Outstanding, Impressive, Creativity comes from God. Never for get that! I hope you will continue to work hard for your dream and even harder for that vision. Your Dream is the skeleton of the Vision that God is constantly expanding. Love you.

From Dearest and Most Sincerely,

God and Zining. 

 

27th April 2011: Hi Ning, today is your Birthday, I wish you a Happy Birthday and hope that all this things you wrote to yourself on 23 January 2011 by you haven’t been forgotten by you.

1st January 2012: Hi Ning, Happy Chinese New Year! How have you been? How’s life in Lasalle?! Is everything alright? Hope you have picked up many skills and ideas together with your classmates there! Jia You in everything you do! May you continue to rely in God’s strength! :D

27th April 2012: Happy Birthday Ning! This is the 2^nd year ever since you made this post to yourself! How are you feeling? Remember courage? Remember Boldness… Although I’m writing this to the Future you in 2years time but… I feel deep in my heart that… You have lost this 2 in the future year in 2years time. I hope this will prompt you and reminds you! <3!

I found my Purpose.

After Pst. Kong preached about Counting your stars, i was so desperately searching for that speacial word in Season. i am so happy that i've found one today when this crew/friend shared with me a verse when we were talking about the shots we give/show when we are doing our shots. 

Awesome manz! 

*will edit this post soon because i'm going to ask for that verse again. Thank You Adrian! Hope no one reads my blog*