I’m not afraid to let the world know…

After been through so much, so much… i refuse to believe. I refuse to take it in.

I really still believe in Friends Forever. I believe it exist. I really do. Call me naive, dumb, idoit, stupid… alll those words you would use on me. I really do still believe that ‘friends forever’ do exist. Friends, exist. Because… i really do. Because i believe. Because they are always around me. I only have 1 best friend. The only one that reallly always stepping into my life giving me a helping hand, always encouraging me. Always pushing me. Always cheering me on. She is still with me. She is my best friend. :D

You can say it, you can tell how many best friends you have… You might be someone who would say you have a lot of best friends in life…

To me, i don’t need a lot of best friends. All i need is 1. Just that 1, it’s enough. I promise myself that no matter how busy i am, no matter how many activities have caught up with me but to never neglect those whom i treasure, those whom are precious in my life.

i mean it.

The Healing Begins.

I’ am feeling so much better now. Well… not physically but mentally. I am very happy that i am no longer looking the side ways of my life but looking ahead… Running/walking/jogging ahead in life.

I wonder why did i even try so hard to carry it back with my own strength when i know my strength alone is not enough. Perhaps i wanted it to be repaired badly? I don’t know…

The side ways of my journey made me so weak in the journey of my life… i was going to crash to the sideways… it was near… Yes, i was already falling so badly at that period of time, suffocating. It was already choking me to death… To be truthful, i couldn’t take it… i wasn’t able to take it… Thanks for cutting me out… Seriously… thanks. :) Although i know that cutting me out was to ease yourself better… Don’t worry. I’m fine already… I’m no longer looking at it anymore. I no longer need to handle it… i am so happy as it was killing me. Really, thank you…

Looking back now, i realize that i’ve had spent so much of my time away on the unworthy… What a waste… Ning, time to get back to your track… All the best, Ning! God Loves you, ning!

My new place. My new home.

So many things happened from the month of June until now. It has ended, i hope. No matter how discourage, disappointed it had bring forth through it, i’m thankful. I’m really thankful that i’ve learnt something fruitful.
To those who was hoping that this would happen, well… you can rejoice now. Like seriously…
Anyway… Lzn-zining will no longer be use. I’ll no longer blog there. I’ll not take a step in there anymore or at least, for the moment.
Peace… i’ll catch you later… i need you badly. I can bear the pain no longer. No longer.
I so hate it there. i hate lzn-zining. i hate it there…
Hopefully i’ll end this quickly and stop getting myself distracted from studying…

Be happy, ning!

Ning, you are living for God. Ain’t for others.
You are called to serve Him and his people but never to please them.
You are look up at Him, so continue to rely in His strength.
Ning, don’t be weary for whatever things had happened, you know you have no control over it but you’ve done your Best. Learn something from each and every situation you’ve been through, whether it’s half way through it or done with it.
All this ain’t a Joke but a barrel to break, to make me stronger so that i can handle it well in the future and be successful in life.
Zining, don’t be weary, nor discourage as you ain’t living for the world but your Almighty God.b c d
God is with you… and may He bless them too. 

mEOW…

This is my precious O beloved Meow meow… Yeah, for some reason, i changed her name to Meow meow last year. My Happy Bun bun!  Love her to the MAX~